Tonight's Run

Wow. Let me just say, "I SUCKED OUT THERE TONIGHT" I was so disappointed.

I'll start from the beginning. i was getting off my train when my right leg started feeling all weird. The inner part of my hip (were leg meets body) was killing me. Now I've had times where I feel the need to "pop" my hip back in but this was far worse, its felt like it was being torn from my body. And when that feeling would arise I would get this pain/numbness down my whole leg. And can't put pressure on my leg. I'm starting to think this might not be a good thing.

This happened probably 3-4 times on the walk to my car. When I got home it was feeling alright, no episodes. So I got ready for my run. Jess & Caleb got there around 7:20 and we headed out. i made it not even half a block, before it struck. After cursing a bit I wanted to keep going, so I walked then started to jog. 3-4 houses later it happened again. But now I am BEYOND frustrated and feeling guilty at the same time. Guilty b/c I'm trying to help Jess & Caleb with this and i can't even run 6 feet. Frustrated because.....well....that should be obvious. Because I, a runner, CAN NOT RUN!! It breaks my heart. All I want is to run. To simply put one foot in front of the other. I want to fell the coldness on my cheeks, hear my feet pounding the pavement, and not have to worry about hurting myself.

i should have been great, this is my favorite and best weather to run in. No one understands my NEED to run. I'm dying without it.